Welcome to the confusion that is my mind

1) Tell you why I friended you
2) Associate you with a song/movie
3) Tell a random fact about you
4) Tell a first memory about you
5) Associate you with an animal/fruit
6) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
7) Show you my favorite user pic of yours
8) In response, you MUST spread this disease in your journal

This was to fun to pass up Enjoy :)

Ok Ill join the crew in this :)

One.
Word.

No.
Explanations.

1. Yourself: Mysterious
2. Your partner: Slow
3. Your hair: Short
4. Your mother: Mom
5. Your father: Dead
6. Your favorite item: Blanket
7. Your dream last night: Empty
8. Your favorite drink: Tab
9. Your dream car: Eclipse
10. The room you are in: Livingroom
11. Your ex: Asshole
12. Your fear: Forgetting
13. What you want to be in 10 years? Remembered
14. Who you hung out with last night? Danika
15. What you're not? Sleepy
16. Muffins: Banana
17. One of your wish list items: Money
18. Time: 11:54
19. The last thing you did: Slept
20. What you are wearing: Sweater
21. Your favorite weather: Warm
22. Your favorite book: Reading?
23. The last thing you ate: Sandwich
24. Your life: Mello
25. Your mood: Unknown
26. Your best friend: Silly
27. What are you thinking about right now? answers
28. Your car: Shitty
29. What are you doing at the moment? Sitting
30. Your summer: Short
31. Your relationship status: Taken
32. What is on your TV? Nothing
33. What is the weather like? Cool
34. When is the last time you laughed? Sunday

Dragonfirre is energetic.

You've got the energy level of a small yip-yap dog. And, much like those dogs, I hope you get run over by an ice cream truck. Yeah, that's right. I said it.

wanna know your lj's moodring color? enter your user name and hit the button. (discussion thread)

Buahhhh somedays this is way way true.. But the little yappie dogs how sad :( I hate those ankle biters :) Oh well guess I will start biting ppl.

* Goes for someone foot *

Hello one and all!!! The question of Texas and weither we are going or not has been up in the air for the last 3 months. Here is your answer .... YES. As of October 10th the offer came threw the money was right and the job offer/title was awesome. So now all the fun stuff like packing and getting a place and all that jazz. I will admit its scary and exciting all at the same time. But I will miss everyone very much. I have a feeling we will have alot of visiters or at least I hope while in Tx :) The plan date to leave Seattle for awhile is the 6th of November. So we have time to pack and see everyone we can before we leave to hang or party :D There is a long term plan and I will say this someday when you least expect it you will see us again in Seattle.

* sits and thinks of the adventure ahead *

beta fish is love
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love is a fish How freaking wrong LOL

Ok so Bethany had this and I answered her so here is mine *^^*

The first five people to respond to this post will receive some form of art by me, about them. I make no guarantees about quality or type, but I will assure that I will give it good effort and that the art will be individual to you, so whether you get a visual, a readible, or a tangible, yours will be the only one like it. If you live far from me and I need to mail it, I'll need your physical address, which you can email to me at the address in my userinfo.

The catch: As with most memes, if you sign up, you have to put this in your own journal as well. This is all about passing forward the art love.

For those of you who may not read the news I bring to you The Stolen Sidekick drama in NYC.
http://www.evanwashere.com/StolenSidekick/
Please note this is a very long read. And the person who is writing all this is doing it for a friend.. Its to humiliate the ppl who stole the phone. Please enjoy I sure as hell did :) Oh yeah when you get the part where you can check out the song written about it ( yes there is a song )do so its rather entertaining.. With that
Have a great evening :)

Happy Birthday MATTBEAR!!!! Everyone wish him a good one he turns 33 today.... And he says hes not old.... YEAH RIGHT!!!!!
We still love you Matt * big bear hug and a kiss on the cheek*

Happy Birthday

To all that have thought I have vanished... Surprise I am back. Yes it has been awhile that I have posted but alot has happened. I needed time to reflect,think,Clear the head and get myself right again. It was a long road and an even longer process but I am doing it. Having the idea of turning 30 scared me most of my last year and i was not comfertable with this thought. The idea of turning 30 scared the SHIT out of me. I would no longer be a young adult I would be moving onto the middle years. OMG NOOOO... April came and went and my birthday came and went and here I am. I will have to admit I didnt have the drop of "OMG Im 30" ( as of yet Im sure it coming =))and the world to end that day. No the days are the same and life is the same.I am still me and nothing has changed.. Other then that fact that I am a year older and a bit more open to what I need to do to change things in my life. I have a better sence of what I want to do and where I want to go. I have learned in the few years that I have had things happen to me that life is short. It can be taken away at any moment and that thought scares me. Realizing that I have not really done all that I have wanted or tried to do. I have slacked alot in life going I dunno what I want I have all the time in the world. But that is just not true. Turning 30 made me realize this Im mid-way in my life time to get my ass in gear and do something worth wild. Stop being a loser. So my goal for me now that I am here and at this peak of my life is school. I want to get going in a course or more in Nurse Transcrips I can do it at home and still take care of Danika. Daycare is soooo damn expensive these freakin days. Something useful so when Danika finally gets into school I will have something I can use for a better job. I finally am ready to get my life rolling foward again and school is a big part of that. Making life better for me, My family and loved ones.

I have kept up here on LJ reading my friends post and answering to ones once in a while. But the break away to get things right in my head has been a good one. Alot of inner searching and alot of making things better with me. Now that I have done that I can once again be a social butterfly and speak again and be me. I have come to the idea that I will be me and change for no one. I have had one person in my life I finally said goodbye to that made me realize that for awhile I was changing to fit there profile or what they wanted because I felt sorry for them. I gave up a year being this person friend because I felt I had to over something that happened. Didnt directly involve me other then the fact they where coming to visit. But alas they did something stupid and for awhile I felt I had an obligation to stay there friend over what had happened.I was unhappy and whenever we talked I was always mad. I finally put my foot down and said enough was enough and let them know it was time to move on. Very hard for me but I know now that I would not ask someone to change for me so why was I for this person.. Plus he bacame very stalkerish. So it was time to go.

I know first post back and its alot of rambling and alot of you will be like so what, who cares, but there are a few who will actually read this and maybe it will change there life or even make them see something inside them. If no one reads this Im ok with that at least it is off my chest. That is what LJ is a place to post how you feel and if ppl read great !!!! if not oh well. Makes me feel better anyway.

Another thing I came to realize is that alot of ppl who I thought where close are not as close as they use to be. I have my core group but there are alot that vanished awhile ago and I keep there IMs or posts to see what they are up to. But never get hellos and chat anymore. I know ppl lives change and we all move on and some stay together and others dont. So the cleanzing has begun. To those of you I keep on my list means I cherish you in some way and that you are close to me. The ones I take off I wish you well and good luck in life but we have grown apart. It is time to say our goodbyes and move on.

On that note I will close and say goodnight...
* runs off into the rain *

Well I will have to say when Danika gets up today that she will be a very happy camper. Its nice and white out there :) Im sure at some point I will have to take her out in it today and that should be alot of fun. As for anyone driving all I can say is be careful and have fun. Oh yeah glad its not me =P I love the white stuff but I HATE driving it. Hmmm wonder if its good apcking snow for snowballs.

On a side note 5 am is way to flipping earlie for any night owl to be up =D

You scored as Serenity (from Firefly). You like to live your own way and do not enjoy when anyone but a friend tries to tell you that you should do different. Now if only the Reavers would quit trying to skin you. </td> Serenity (from Firefly) 81% Moya (from Farscape) 75% SG-1 (from Stargate) 75% Bebop (from Cowboy Bebop) 69% Millennium Falcon (from Star Wars) 69% Galactica (from Battlestar: Galactica) 69% Nebuchadnezzar (from The Matrix) 69% Enterprise D (from Star Trek) 38% Your Ultimate Sci-Fi Profile: which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? (pics) created with QuizFarm.com

Now that is just funny lol

Ok I saw this and I see that Matt added LP :) I know on LP's he will say me so without further to do I will beat him and get it started.

Two Names You Go By
1. Lox
2. Hey you


Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Italian
2. German

Two Things That Scare You
1. The Goverment
2. Idiot drivers

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. music
2. CoH/CoV ( City of Heros and City of Villains)


Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Blue Jeans
2. Red sports bra


Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (at the moment)
1. DJ Christopher Lawrence ( DUH )
2. Dave Matthews


Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
1. Talking things out
2. trust


Two Truths
1. Yes I swing
2. I speak my mind if you dont like that dont hang with me


Two Physical Things that Appeal to You
1. Nice Ass
2. good friendships

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Beading ( Duh raver)
2. Going for walks with Danika


Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. Money lots and lots of money
2. An Eclipse

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. Austrailia
2. Mexico

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Go to Stone Henge ( the real one )
2. See one Alien the ones from outerspace

Two Ways that you are stereotypically a Chick/Guy
1. OOOO love to get my nails done
2. when going out to a nice place having to make sure I look good all teh time


Two Things You Normally Wouldn't Admit
1. HAHA nice now if I wrote them down I would have to kill anyone who read it so um NO
2.


Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. How to answer these questions
2. and BLT's are almost done ..YUMMIE

Two Stores You Shop At
1. Costco
2. Game Stop


Two people I would like to see take this quiz
1. Daydream
2. Desidono

Two people I haven't talked to in a while
1. Brad and Suzie
2. Bill and Zoe

half-dark/fairy, you are mysterious.


which half-breed are you???????
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Saw this Daydreams LJ and figured I had to see what is was about :)

You are

Your Mood Ring is Orange

Stimulating ideas Daring Full of desires

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

Here are some kewl test.. I was bored this morning and wanted to share some fun :) So here ya go :)

So lets see how this tale shall unfold.

Friday night was a blast ( Ty Mattbear and Jen ). We went to dinner at there place and had a great time just hanging out and playing some hand and foot. Ofcourse the BOYZ cheated and won (JK). But we had a great time just chillin out, listening to some music and playin. Minus Danika deciding to NOT sleep again but hey thats a 3 year old for ya =)

Saturday was a relaxing day at home. We did Jack didly except go and get food finally in the house. Y@Y food!!! Always good to have grub to munch on :) Played some CoH ( City of Heros for you non gamer geeks ) and just relaxed.

Sunday ( Stupidity day ) was River rafting with the famdamly it was nice and warm and everyone was ready for the ride.The adults of the group have each a bottle of beer in there hand relaxin, floating and having a good time. The kids have soda and fruit juice. Get going down the river and we get to the first set of rapids. Adam goes to help Teresa (his sister) to get the 3 little ones ( Ashley, Danika and Randy) threw the first set in safety in there nice big plastic boat. Hands me his beer and now I have 2 :) WARNING STUPID PART AHEAD!!!!
So we hit the rapids and low and behold I flip over with both bottle of beer still in may hands.
( can anyone see what I am getting at =))As I tip over the beer in the left hand gets thrown and I grab my glasses to make sure I dont lose them. My right hand is not so lucky :( Mind you it still has a bottle of beer in it. As I tip I try to steady myself and smash the bottle into a rock.. Or at least I think that is what happens. Not sure.. All I remember is the bottle disintegrated in my hand and then is gone. when I get myself upright the first thing I do it look at my right hand and guess what I see... You got it alot of blood. I can't stop because we are still finishing the first set of rapids. So all I can do is stare at my hand and yell Im bleeding to Adam. The rest is a bit foggy as to what happend in the next few second. I think i was stuck on the fact that there was blood all over my hand. When I snapped back to reality Adam had already tore up some of his shirt and wrapped it :) What a great guy =D
We continued down the river. Nothing else to do we had to get to the car.. Still had a great time floating minus the pain once in a while in the hand ;( Got to the car , quickly changed and went to the emergency room. HAHA yeah 6 stitches later the booboo is all better and not bleeding. I wil admit I have done well. In my life of 29 years I can say before this I have never had to have any stitches or anything this major before. * knocks hard on wood *. You know what they say there is always room for a first =D

Needless to say for the next few days I will be typing with my ring finger and moving a mouse very slowly =) Why I didnt drop the bottles before the rapids is beyond me but lesson learned.. Plastic beer bottle next time =D And I got some kick ass meds so when the pain hits like it did this morning at god forsaken 6 am in the morning. Waking you up and not letting you sleep anymore. Yes very bitter about being up :)

But anywho I am alive and well with some kick ass neon green tape around my hand and a very sore and numb finger. Other then that I had a great weekend.

Have a great monday =D

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Adam
Happy birthday to you =)

Y@Y today Adam turns 31 :) So if ya get a chance drop him a line and wish him a Happy Birthday =)

I have been sitting here this week wondering where I belong in life. Wondering how things can start to go up then the floor falls out from under you and you fall to the bottom again. During my time of thinking I came across an old poem a friend wrote for me a long time ago when things were alot worse for me. And I figured I would share it with my friends =)

Do you know how special you are?
you're a wonderful human being.
Throughout all the world, and all the tomorrows there is now, and ever will be
only one you.

Celebrate the miracle of you.
and when bad times happen and the world seems so unfair
and the people you love seem so quick to criticize
Remember that you belong

Touch life and come back strong.
never let anyone tell you your not worthwhile.
I want you to know that when you smile and laugh
when you cry you show you still have the courage to go on.

Everyday think to yourself.
I celebrate me :)
being the best I can be
I know we are all different
and that's what makes us so wonderfully special.
I make a difference
in everything I do.
I make mistakes and that is ok too.
I like me
and I can grow and I can change
I am worthwhile.
I BELONG...

Read this poem this week and it made me feel better about myself. That life has it up and downs but no matter what I can make it threw. I will not be beaten by another fall to the bottom. I have made it this far in life with the help of my friends and family and I am grateful for them ever step I take =)

So as many of you know I have started my job this week :) Im very excited to be working again and getting money.. Which is very much needed. i will have to admit thou that my brain is hurting very much. Alot to learn in a few weeks.But I am proud of myself. I am keeping up. Not as well as some ppl but I am getting it a bit more every day. Its a teir 2 tech job and a bit out of my league but I am managing to make it work. It helps that the trainer is at least fun. I swear he is a hippy =D Which makes it even more fun =D

Damn lunch is not long enough..
Will finish the post tonight =D